As I sit in a booth alone at a restaurant in South Austin today, I find myself almost in tears. I’m not sad, actually I am quite overjoyed. Motherhood can be challenging. The love and concern that you have for your children never leave you. My youngest daughter is 18 and she is a very quiet and shy girl. I’ve worried about her having a social life since her core group of best friends left for college this summer. She works and comes home, sits on the sofa and watches anime on her computer. What kind of life is that? I gave her two homework assignments over the summer (mom’s rules trump her being 18). She was to look for a career or college that she is interested in and she has to join some sort of social group. Well here it is October and this is her first anime meetup in Austin. I knew that if I didn’t go along for the ride she would chicken out. So I made her drive. When we got here, she had to find the group and introduce herself. I am sitting at a table within earshot and I’m watching my daughter come alive. I haven’t seen her this animated and social in I can’t remember when! My hope is that this is the beginning of an enjoyable time for her. All parents want their children to be happy and well-adjusted. She is surrounded by a very diverse group of people who I feel will expand her horizons. It is beautiful watching my little daisy unfold and bloom in her own special way. Sometimes I am the heroine and others, I’m the supporting character.
As a giver, I have not mastered the art of receiving. But this week I decided it was time to practice. I put it out there Tuesday morning that I was ready for the Universe to “gift” me. Once the intention was set, I went about my day with the giddiness of a little girl waiting to open her birthday presents. What would the Universe bring to me?
It was a day filled with adventure, playing tourist and sightseeing. With each place we went I wondered, “Is this the place where the Universe will gift me?” I was thinking that I would get something for free…I’ve been pretty good at manifesting that lately. My mind imagined some cute trinket that would remind me of my trip. That would be a nice gift. The day was coming to an end and we headed back to visit with my daughter-in-law. I began to rewind the day’s events in my head. Did I miss something?
It was evening time and I checked my phone for calls and realized that I had a message online from a friend that I have not seen in ten years. What a surprise! A lot of emotions came up for me. We had briefly talked online this past year but there were still some underlying emotions that were left unresolved. There was still some healing to do. We decided to meet for coffee the next morning. It was a short visit but that hour changed my life on so many levels. We were both allowed the opportunity to speak our minds and put some perspective into our relationship. Seeing life through another person’s eyes can be quite liberating. I acted out of fear back then. I completely own that. I shed that person a long time ago but for some reason I was still carrying the old skin around with me.
We all carry excess baggage from time to time. We simply have to remember to let go!
My mind thought small when it came to receiving. I’m glad that I was not in charge of creating the gift!
Thank you Universe! I’m especially grateful for my friend who gave me the chance to put my heart at peace.
It IS my pleasure…that is my standard email answer at work when someone sends me a thank you.
You may be thinking that I am over exaggerating my response but I’m speaking the truth. It is nice to be thanked. I’m not saying that every moment of my job is rainbows and glitter but generally speaking I love what I do. No two days are the same. As a matter of fact my job description changes as the needs of the company change. For some, this type of work atmosphere would bring on anxiety. But it is how I like to roll.
When the day comes where I cannot sign my email with, “it is my pleasure”, I will know my job is done.
Stop planning and begin embracing the Here and Now. I remember almost seven years ago, how I planned to work for a year and then quit my job to write a book. I had everything planned out and set expectations on how it would happen. Guess what? I am still with the same company and STILL writing my book!
Here is what I have realized:
1. Everything happens in Universal (God’s) time.
2. I am not in control of every step.
3. Work has been a blessing. I have had a lot of growth and experience in my job. In turn that experience has helped me to develop my gifts and talents.
4. Bloom where you are planted!
If you have a vision, desire, plan – you must do what you can to make it happen and then let go of all expectations. Allow it to come to you.
To sum it up:
1. Be centered, assured, believe in self. The more you believe the faster it will happen.
2. Let go of fear and negativity associated with past.
3. Let go of the need to plan.
4. Don’t question – ACCEPT!
5. Acknowledge that there is a Universal time that you do not control.
Embrace the art of letting go. Stay fluid and release physical attachments. Be grateful for all that happens in your life. You may be unaware of the path that you need to take in order to get to where you want to go.
Oh the joys of dinner conversations with teenagers.
Last night my two youngest teens were conversing about dating. Here’s how that went down (paraphrasing) –
Daughter: You know that I heard you have a girlfriend. Are you dating?
Son: What do you consider dating?
Daughter: You know, going in a car to places together.
Son: Well I guess we’re not yet.
Daughter: I have to approve of any girl you like. I’m the sister and I’m supposed to know these things and you didn’t tell me!
Son: Well I have to approve of your boyfriends. Wait….you don’t have a boyfriend. I have to….approve….of your cats.
Needless to say I about spit my food all over the table. Comedic relief when least expected.
The Universe gifts us with moments at just the right time :).
A note from my Higher Self to Me:
There will be days when you will be afraid to do something….do it anyway!
There will be days when you feel like you cannot give another breath of energy to your purpose…do it anyway!
There will be days when you question your purpose and become filled with fear….do it anyway!
There will be days when others will try to discourage you from your passion…do it anyway!
The only journey to filling your life purpose is through the doubt, fear, and being out of your comfort zone.
Like the caterpillar that spends its days crawling on the ground wishing it could fly. It takes stages of growth to ultimately become the butterfly. If there was no struggle, the caterpillar could not transform into the winged creature who takes flight.