My Heart is broken open

Sitting in my office, I am reflecting on the journey my life has taken the last 14 years. It is much easier to share the highlights and hide the struggles and hard times. Yet that is where the richest part of life comes from….the brokenness and the pain that causes a person to grow and expand in ways they never imagined. No one is exempt from trials, tribulations and heartache. It is just not shared so openly.

I never imagined myself to be married twice let alone on my way to a second divorce. I was in it for the long haul. That’s where I got sidetracked folks. Trying so hard to make something work that had naturally run its course. I found myself swimming upstream and I was exhausted. Finally I threw my hands in the air and asked for some spiritual guidance. What came out of that conversation is that I did not support myself or have my own back. Let me repeat that loud and clear…I DID NOT HAVE MY OWN BACK.

My journey to being authentic was just beginning and might I add, it is not a destination…it is a journey. I’ve always been a person to be supportive of other people, but not myself. The realization hit me hard and stopped me in my tracks. I took a good look at my life and decided to make some changes. The Marie Kondo for the Soul began to help me clear out the baggage in my heart so I could clear up my life. Being real and speaking my truth has taken me out of my comfort zone. I’m living on the edge each and every day. It’s a beautiful place to be as I see my new chapter begin to take shape.

Divorce is not my finest hour in life but it is necessary for me. I am always going to love the man I chose to marry. We share beautiful children that we raised together. There were great times, good time and sad times. There is no right or wrong. It just is. I am grateful for our time together. We helped each other to grow and expand as human beings. Coming full circle, that journey into marriage led me to where I am right now…with the courage to have my heart broken open.

9 Comments on “My Heart is broken open

  1. Sorry to hear this, Dina. Life can take turns we never expect. Hope you are on a path that draws you closer to God and His plan for you. Blessings.- Meredith

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  2. Sorry to hear Dina. Life can be so unpredictable but at the same time we have to accept and move on. It is the accepting that is so hard. You have to accept what you know about yourself and others and both need change. You are not alone in your experiences, we all, including yours truly, have been thru some big life changing events. It led to multiple marriages and changes in lifestyle. In the end we don’t diminish our experience but we learn and live differently.
    Here is wishing you the best as you grieve and bring out the best of yourself and move to higher ground.

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  3. What a beautiful letter Dina. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I am so proud of the person you are and how strong you are. I am sorry for what you’re going through. I hope you know that you have a friend in us. We love you!

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  4. Beautiful friend! Thanks for opening your heart and sharing your life with us. God have amazing plans for you, and remember you are not alone. I love you very much.

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